Done deal!

I went to UCSi today to register with Susan and Shi Lee. I'm so glad that i have a direction to go now. And honestly, after hearing what my friends told me just now about their lives in public Unis, i'm a bit glad about my decision. Ya, i might need to pay more but it's a good investment. I can always get back that amount of money when i work in the future. Now, i'm just keeping my fingers crossed so that i can get PTPTN loan!

By the way, there's a really good book that i think everyone should read. It's called 'The Secret'. It's motivational book that works if you really understand the principles of it.

My classes will start in September. So, i have another month of break! Yipee :D

Frustrated.

Everything is just not right. I’m jinx. Everything bloody thing I planned has gone down the drain. Went to UCSI yesterday, and I was told that if I take the offer from UCSI, I can’t take up PTPTN loan. Ok, fine, I thought. Maybe my family still can support me for the rest of the 45k. But I was very naïve. If there’s one thing I learnt from all these is that you can never rely on anyone, not even your closest family members especially when it comes to money because everyone is realistic. The fact is that they are able to support me but the question is, are they willing to do so?

I’m so frustrated with all these. Sometime I just feel like stop studying and work. 3.75 and yet, I couldn’t go anywhere. The best they can give me is computer science. Bullshit. I have a friend whose pointer was only 2.1 and yet he got a engineering course. Just plain bullshit.

These were my initial plans:
1. Wait for the appeal result for the course of Physiotheraphy in UKM in July - FAILED
2. 50% scholarship from UCSI to do nutrition in September - ????
3. Pharmacy in AIMST in September - TOO EXPENSIVE
4. Full scholarship from Nilai to do Computing/ accounting / business - TURNS OUT TO BE 50% BEACUSE I HAVE AN A-
5. Biomedical Science in UTAR in January 2008
6. Chemical Engineering in Curtin, Sarawak in September - APPLICATION CLOSED.

But now i can only hope on UCSI and UTAR. UTAR would be a safer choice because i can take up full loan from PTPTN but i have to wait until January 2008 and i don't want to wait that long because i feel like i've wasted enough time. UCSI on the other hand is a very risky decision. I can try my luck to borrow PTPTN but if i dont get, i'll be wasting the first semester fees.

Does anyone knows of any instituitons or banks i can borrow money from??

I've made up my mind

I'm going to UCSI for September intake.

In the meantime, i'm working in Sunway Pyramid. Drop by at the Chanel counter if you want to see me.

I need $$$$$!!

Life is so bloody boring.

Work is boring, weekends are even worse, and staying at home is like unbelievably BORING. There’s nothing to do, nothing exciting and new. I spend like at least 3 hours a day sitting down doing nothing but stares into the blank wall. Well, that’s what I do at work. And then when I got home, it’s either TV or games on the com. It’s pretty much the same routine. I bloody hate this. There’s no meaning to life. By the way, for those of you who are wondering what am I working as, I’m working as a beauty consultant (BC) (again!!) but for different brands this time. Chanel, Anna Sui, Dior etc…I’m a freelance bc.

I hate it when people ask me what is my next plan and all I can say is I’m not sure yet. It’s very degrading. Most people will give me that ‘look’, you know, the look that says ‘this girl has no idea what she’s gonna do with her life’. Sigh. Especially with what I’m working as now, people would think I’m a bimbo.

I guess life’s like that. There will come a time when you are at a super high point in your life and then, all of sudden, it comes down. Reminds me of graphs now. Heck, now I miss studies. I’m a study freak. Last few months were great; I had so much fun, even at work, or at home. But now, I miss all that. Now, everything’s just empty.

Ah….life is a bed of roses…full of thorns.

Arghhh!!!

Right now, I’m lost and confused. I’ve been given the course of Computer Science in an unknown university in Melaka, UTeM. The result was announced on the 18th and for that one whole day, I was totally blank. Who could have thought that a biology student would get a computer course??? Just plain ridiculous and brainless. It’s not like I’m a lousy student, hey, I got 92/100 for my total percentage! And what university is this??? I’ve never even heard of it! Even my teachers were staring me in blank when I told them I was offered a course in this unheard of uni.

If only I knew this is the outcome, I would never have taken STPM. All the hard work, stress, tears and anxiety of taking STPM for nothing! It’s juste very very unfair!!!! STPM is one of the hardest tests in the world and yet, it’s not recognized. And this is all because STPM students are mostly Chinese. I so bloody hate Malaysian government. So blatantly unfair.

I have a few choices now.
1. Wait for the appeal result for the course of Physiotheraphy in UKM in July
2. 50% scholarship from UCSI to do nutrition in September
3. Pharmacy in AIMST in September
4. Full scholarship from Nilai to do Computing/ accounting / business
5. Biomedical Science in UTAR in January 2008
6. Chemical Engineering in Curtin, Sarawak in September

Arranged according to my preference.
In the meantime, I must find a job until end of July when the appeal result is out. I need the $$$$... Anyone knows of any temp jobs?

In one week's time.

Next Friday is my last day of work. I've work there for 5 long months, which is not really long but for me, it's very long. It's the longest job I've ever had! Everyone in the company seems to know that I'll be leaving soon and it's really nice of them to wish me luck for my studies. I got a shock yesterday when my Managing Director (MD), an American asked me if i wanted to stay longer there. He would arrange a position for me upstairs in the main office if i wanted to stay. I was thinking to myself "No way in hell, man!". Lol. But of course i didn't say anything like that, i told him i need some time off for myself before university starts. In fact, i think i was a bit tongue tied when he asked me that because he was the last person i would expect to ask me that. Heck, even my own boss couldn't be bothered about me leaving!

A part of me is sad to leave but another part of me is glad to leave this company. There's just too much of politics here. The environment here is simply absurd. There's just too many things to do here but so little capable people. There were 3 new staffs who came in to work for the first day in the company and the next day, they left. And these are all non-related to each other, they are independent cases, in different departments. The capable ones are leaving because of a group of lousy and useless people who would wreck havoc everything! And some of these group of people are in the top management. It's just so sad to see that the capable ones are struggling in their everyday work and just trying to survive in the company. It's not like the MD is not doing anything about it but there's just too much going on in the company that i think even he couldn't handle it.

But i do feel a bit sad of leaving and saying good bye to a few great people there. My two best friends there, Ahilah and Sofea, the ever so courteous and polite German manager (not to forget handsome!), Oliver, the MD who always asks me how am i doing, Tracy and the accounts lady who helped me with everything, Ms Teoh. These are the few people whom I'll miss dearly.
I wish to work with them again in the future but in a much better environment, of course.
I wish them all luck!

Let's see what will happen in my last week of work there.