Frustrated.

Everything is just not right. I’m jinx. Everything bloody thing I planned has gone down the drain. Went to UCSI yesterday, and I was told that if I take the offer from UCSI, I can’t take up PTPTN loan. Ok, fine, I thought. Maybe my family still can support me for the rest of the 45k. But I was very naïve. If there’s one thing I learnt from all these is that you can never rely on anyone, not even your closest family members especially when it comes to money because everyone is realistic. The fact is that they are able to support me but the question is, are they willing to do so?

I’m so frustrated with all these. Sometime I just feel like stop studying and work. 3.75 and yet, I couldn’t go anywhere. The best they can give me is computer science. Bullshit. I have a friend whose pointer was only 2.1 and yet he got a engineering course. Just plain bullshit.

These were my initial plans:
1. Wait for the appeal result for the course of Physiotheraphy in UKM in July - FAILED
2. 50% scholarship from UCSI to do nutrition in September - ????
3. Pharmacy in AIMST in September - TOO EXPENSIVE
4. Full scholarship from Nilai to do Computing/ accounting / business - TURNS OUT TO BE 50% BEACUSE I HAVE AN A-
5. Biomedical Science in UTAR in January 2008
6. Chemical Engineering in Curtin, Sarawak in September - APPLICATION CLOSED.

But now i can only hope on UCSI and UTAR. UTAR would be a safer choice because i can take up full loan from PTPTN but i have to wait until January 2008 and i don't want to wait that long because i feel like i've wasted enough time. UCSI on the other hand is a very risky decision. I can try my luck to borrow PTPTN but if i dont get, i'll be wasting the first semester fees.

Does anyone knows of any instituitons or banks i can borrow money from??